A Song for Me
By
Lisa Boyer
“Trust
in the Lord with ALL your heart and lean not on your own understanding.”
Proverbs
3:5 (NIV, emphasis added)
Two years ago, I heard
a song on the radio; actually, I misheard a song on the radio…
I had been feeling a
bit brokenhearted when I heard the words, “I can’t give You half my heart and
pray You make it whole.” Those words brought my world to a stop. I had been
praying (and sometimes crying) to God over a particular situation, asking Him
to heal my heart. But in that moment, I realized I hadn’t really given it all to Him, I had only given Him
“half my heart.”
Though I hadn’t
actually said it, my prayers had been for Him to change the situation so that
my heart would no longer hurt; not for Him to walk me through the healing
process. My request had been wrapped in red tape and unspoken stipulations. I
hadn’t been willing to fully surrender the situation or accept the outcome, whatever
that may be. I know nothing is impossible with God, but it was seriously
foolish of me to give Him only half my heart and expect Him to make it whole. I
needed to surrender it all and truly trust Him with the outcome.
I went back to God in
prayer and gave Him everything: the hopes, desires, expectations,
disappointments, hurts - - all of it. And then we (He and I) spent time walking
through the healing process. Part of that process was my accepting a situation
I couldn’t change, and accepting that He chose not to change for me. Another
part was trusting that what He was doing was best, even if I didn’t understand
it. It wasn’t always easy, in fact, it was hardly ever easy, but it was worth
it.
Looking back, I know I
heard exactly what I needed to hear on the radio that day… a version of a song
God played just for me.
GOING DEEPER:
1. Have you been
holding back part of yourself from God and expecting Him to honor your prayers?
Today, will you completely surrender?
2. As you read
this, did God bring a girlfriend to mind that you should share this with? Will
you pass it on to her?
FURTHER READING:
Lisa
is married to Ted and they have two teenage sons. Lisa administers Fresh
Start’s Facebook and blog, serves with the 5th & 6th
graders on Sunday morning at Oakwood, and loves hanging out with and impacting
teenage girls for Christ.
