A Song for Me
By Lisa Boyer
“Trust in the Lord with ALL your
heart
and lean not on your own
understanding.”
Proverbs 3:5 (NIV, emphasis added)
Once,
I heard a song on the radio; actually, I misheard a song on the radio…
I had
been feeling a bit brokenhearted when I heard the words, “I can’t give You half
my heart and pray You make it whole.” Those words brought my world to a stop. I
had been praying (and sometimes crying) to God over a particular situation,
asking Him to heal my heart. But in that moment, I realized I hadn’t really
given it all to Him, I had only given Him “half my heart.”
Though
I hadn’t actually said it, my prayers had been for Him to change the situation
so that my heart would no longer hurt; not for Him to walk me through the
healing process. My request had been wrapped in red tape and unspoken
stipulations. I hadn’t been willing to fully surrender the situation or accept
the outcome, whatever that may be. I know nothing is impossible with God, but
it was seriously foolish of me to give Him only half my heart and expect Him to
make it whole. I needed to surrender it all and truly trust Him with the
outcome.
I went
back to God in prayer and gave Him everything: the hopes, desires,
expectations, disappointments, hurts - - all of it. And then we (He and I)
spent time walking through the healing process. Part of that process was my
accepting a situation I couldn’t change, and accepting that He chose not to
change for me. Another part was trusting that what He was doing was best, even
if I didn’t understand it. It wasn’t always easy, in fact, it was hardly ever
easy, but it was worth it.
Looking
back, I know I heard exactly what I needed to hear on the radio that day… a
version of a song God played just for me.
GOING
DEEPER:
1.
Have you been holding back part of yourself from God and expecting Him to honor
your prayers? Today, will you completely surrender?
2.
As you read this, did God bring a girlfriend to mind that you should share this
with? Will you pass it on to her?
FURTHER
READING:
Lisa has been married to Ted for 24 years and they have two sons
in college. Lisa serves in Quest 56 on Sunday mornings at Oakwood.
