A Song for Me
By Lisa Boyer
“Trust in the Lord
with ALL your heart
and lean not on your own understanding.”
Proverbs 3:5
Not
long ago I heard a song on the radio; actually, I misheard a song on the
radio…
I
had been feeling a bit brokenhearted when I heard the words, “I can’t give You
half my heart and pray You make it whole.” Those words brought my world to a
stop. I had been praying (and sometimes crying) to God over a particular
situation, asking Him to heal my heart. But in that moment, I realized I hadn’t
really given it all to Him, I had
only given Him “half my heart.”
Though
I hadn’t actually said it, my prayers had been for Him to change the situation
so that my heart would no longer hurt; not for Him to walk me through the
healing process. My request had been wrapped in red tape and unspoken
stipulations. I hadn’t been willing to fully surrender the situation or accept
the outcome, whatever that may be. I know nothing is impossible with God, but
it was seriously foolish of me to give Him only half my heart and expect Him to
make it whole. I needed to surrender it all and truly trust Him with the
outcome.
I
went back to God in prayer and gave Him everything: the hopes, desires,
expectations, disappointments, hurts - - all of it. And then we (He and I)
spent time walking through the healing process. Part of that process was my
accepting a situation I couldn’t change, and accepting that He chose not to
change for me. Another part was trusting that what He was doing was best, even
if I didn’t understand it. It wasn’t always easy, in fact, it was hardly ever
easy, but it was worth it.
Looking
back, I know I heard exactly what I needed to hear on the radio that day… a
version of a song God played just for me.
GOING DEEPER:
1. Have you been holding back part of yourself
from God and expecting Him to honor your prayers? Today, will you completely
surrender?
2. As you
read this, did God bring a girlfriend to mind that you should share this with?
Will you pass it on to her?
FURTHER READING:
Lisa
is married to Ted and they have two teenage sons. Lisa administers Fresh
Start’s Facebook and blog, serves with the 5th & 6th
graders on Sunday morning at Oakwood, and loves hanging out with and impacting
teenage girls for Christ.
