Wrestling
With God
By Brita Crouse
"Yes, [Jacob] wrestled with the angel and won. He wept and pleaded for a blessing from him. There at Bethel he met God face to face, and God spoke to him - - the LORD God Almighty, the LORD is His name!"
"Yes, [Jacob] wrestled with the angel and won. He wept and pleaded for a blessing from him. There at Bethel he met God face to face, and God spoke to him - - the LORD God Almighty, the LORD is His name!"
Hosea
12:4,5 (NLT)
It
is amazing how much happens in a year. For me, this past year has been full of
joy and struggle and changes. Now I find myself preparing to make another big transition.
Of course, there is excitement in this because it means new people, places and
experiences. But, it also means that many doors, which opened up a year ago,
are now beginning to close.
Over
the past year, I’ve had opportunities to teach, lead, minister, learn, grow,
witness and deepen relationships through work, volunteer positions and
interactions with loved ones. Now that I am approaching this new stage of life
- - one that I have anticipated and praying about for years - - I find myself
on a roller coaster of emotion.
Lately,
I have felt like I’m in a wrestling match with God. I have so much to look
forward to, but it’s hard for me to see past my disappointment in giving up
things I have come to love doing. God has led me to and through some amazing
places this past year, so I keep reminding myself that I will embrace where He
leads me in the future.
In
Genesis 32, we read about Jacob, who is feeling the pressure of an impending
meeting with his estranged brother. A “Man” sees Jacob, who is alone, and
wrestles him. Jacob is at a point in his life where he needs to submit to God.
He has a lot riding on this meeting with his brother Esau but he needs to trust
God with it. That is what the Man is there to help him realize. Jacob didn’t
wrestle with God, God initiated and wrestled with him to bring him to a point
of true surrender. (1)
Much
like Jacob, I am also learning this lesson of submission and trust. God has
blessed me immensely this past year and now He is calling me to move on to
something else. Instead of resisting His great plan for me, I am learning to
embrace it.
God’s
plan for our lives is so much greater than we could ever hope or imagine. Our
response? Submit to and trust in Him.
GOING
DEEPER:
1. How can God be shining through your weakness
today?
2. Listen to “You Make
Everything Beautiful” by Rebecca St. James (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gRyDhDXMaog).
FURTHER
READING:
(1)
Perkins, Daniel. “The Cost of Wrestling with God.” Relevant Magazine. Web. 25 June 2014. Read it here: http://www.relevantmagazine.com/god/practical-faith/cost-wrestling-god
Brita recently
graduated from Taylor University with a degree in Psychology, and is currently
a helper for Oakwood’s Quest 56 and the Just Among Moms weekly childcare team.
